to hold infinity in the palm of your hands, and eternity in an hour

"all knowledge is worth having" because knowledge is power. If you understand something you control it and that is something i must always have ..........control. Just one problem with that. This giant mindfuck we call life. You deluded yourself into thinking that your strong, untouchable and in control. You build up your metaphysical armor. Then when you least expect it someone finds the chink, your Achilles heel and everything comes tumbling down. You feel violated to your very core that they could see you like this and you love it. While your around them its exhilarating. A fire starts somewhere at the base of your spine and slowly it radiates outwards. The euphoria is better than any other high; but it is short lived. The minute you leave there presence the full ramifications hit you like a physical blow. If you want something that you cant provide for yourself then you pathetic, your dependent, your weak. You berate yourself and then are further enraged that your even thinking about it ........about them